Oh Baby!

My stomach had been feeling a tad uneasy the entire time we were gone on our trip. I had just chalked it up to the traveling and eating foods I'm not used to. I tried really hard not to let my mind drift to the "what if I'm pregnant scenario". You see, when you've tried to conceive for as long as Chris and I have, your mind plays mean tricks on you in those two weeks. I've been convinced several times that I must be pregnant. Well, by Friday the 28th, my curiosity got the best of me.

That evening, as it was approaching Clara's bedtime, I said "I'm going to run to Walgreen's real quick. I'm out of shampoo and toothpaste", and then hoped they wouldn't want to come along. It was just right down the road, so I figured they wouldn't mind if I left the little one for a few minutes. While there, I picked up a package of 2 digital tests. I knew I'd have to take more than one, you know, just to be sure.

After I put Clara to bed, I couldn't wait any longer, so I took the test. The bathroom is right next to the office, where Dan and Linda both were on their computers, so I had to be really quiet and try not to squeal. Then I had to venture out of the bathroom to find my camera to take some pictures. I had trouble getting good ones because of the lighting, so it took several minutes of camera adjustment. I'm sure they were wondering what was going on in there. Or trying really hard not to wonder. I had to make sure there was no sign of pregnancy test stuff laying around, too.

That night, I hardly slept a wink. With such a huge secret and no one to tell, my mind raced all night long. I went back and forth all night trying to decide whether or not to tell his parents before I told Chris. I wanted to tell Chris in person, but how could I make it a week without telling anyone? I guess it would've been pretty safe to tell Clara. I did get some sleep eventually, but everytime I woke up, my mind immediately went to baby, I'd have a huge smile on my face, and then stay awake thinking another half hour before falling back to sleep, with a huge smile on my face.

It was a good night. A good night indeed.