It's Finally Here

For months now my womb has been empty, and as of today, my arms are too.

I'm doing well today, all things considered. I will admit last week was rough. I'm not usually a crier and I shed a few tears in anticipation of today. I asked for prayers at ladies bible class on Tuesday and they must be doing a bang up job, because this week has been a lot better for me.

I can't help but think of all the things I'm thankful for that I wouldn't be able to say if I had a new baby right now.

* I've been able to put a lot of time into Clara's birthday to make it special for her because I'm not caring for a new baby or in the hospital with a new baby or 27months pregnant about to pop a new baby out.

* We get to spend time with family at Christmas which is something that probably wouldn't have happened this year if we'd thrown a brand new baby into the mix.

* I got a good night's sleep last night and will probably sleep well tonight, the night after that and for many nights to come.

* I won't change a diaper today and Clara (hopefully) won't have a blow out that requires a new change of clothes for the both of us.

* I'm not leaking, which is always a blessing.

* I have the time and energy to enjoy the holidays and won't be stuck at home with a new baby. This is especially nice because Clara is loving everything about Christmas this year.

* God was able to bless me with this babysitting job I believe to keep me occupied, motivated and distracted. And it's working!

* We are able to put some serious thought into foster care.

Obviously, I would trade all of these things for a baby to hold right now. Since that's not an option, I've decided I'll praise God in all things.