You Ever Have One of Those Days?

I woke up this morning and knew from the get go it wasn't going to be a good day. I decided early on that I really didn't want to be a mom today. Well, that's not completely accurate; I would've been a great mom had I been heading out to work, or a day at the spa, maybe a vacation in Tahiti even. Oh, or if she was going to preschool for the day or spending the day with Grandma. Honestly, had I been anywhere other than her general vicinity, I so would've rocked in the mom department.

Instead, every single little thing my child did today just irked the heck out of me. Everything. I had zero patience with her. The morning started off with her getting on my computer while I was blow drying my hair. I have no idea what she did, but when I went to type something, it was all caps. Ok, easy enough, I hit the all caps key, started typing again.......still all caps. Then I clicked inside a window so I could scroll and the window closed on me. Three times. It's all better now, so she must've fixed it.

We went downstairs and I go to fix her a cup of milk. She apparently was nanoseconds from dying from thirst because she flings herself to the floor and goes into convulsions all the while screaming. So I set it on the counter until she's done with her performance. When she comes to and asks nicely for a drink, I hand it to her. She was mistaken in believing that I had poured her juice rather than milk and another tantrum ensues.

She did have some firsts today:

She learned how to open the refrigerator. I was not proud of this achievement in the least. My electric bill will be noticably higher from all the opening and shutting she did today.

Then she learned how to use the step button thing on the trash can to open it. Open, shut, open, shut, SCREAM! Her toes got wedged between the back of the step and the trash can. I had to get down on the floor, wrestling her and the can to get her out.

And then she ate the tip off of a crayon for the first time......and liked it.

Her halloween costume came today and I put it on her. I tried to put the hat on her and she threw yet another fit, this time throwing herself onto the floor and hitting her head on the wall. And then she got up a few minutes after I put her down for her nap and shut her bedroom door. Then realized she couldn't open it back up. And the screaming ensues yet again. She harrassed the dogs even after being told repeatedly to leave them alone. And pretty much harrassed me all day as well.

Ok, now that I got that out, here are the things that I loved most about today. They really stick out because it was such a terrible day.

-A woman at storytime told me how incredibly sweet Clara was and the librarian yet again complimented her on being such a good girl at storytime.

-When I was comforting her after her trash can experience she had her head on my shoulder and she started rubbing my back, comforting me.

-The look on her face as she got her own cup out of the fridge and put it back in all by herself was nothing short of pure joy.

-She climbed up on her step stool in the bathroom with her baby doll Abby. I guess she hadn't seen herself mothering before, because she put Abby on her shoulder and watched herself pat Abby's back with a serious face. Then she started rubbing her back and she got the big scrunched up face smile and laughed out loud. She did this several times.

-Then she turned to the side and was rocking Abby. She slowly looked over in the mirror. I think she was trying to watch herself be a mommy without her reflection looking back at her if that makes sense. Like she didn't want to disturb Abby's mommy, but she really wanted to see her in action. She did it a few times and it was really cute.

-I have a healthy, beautiful, mischevious, curious, silly, polite and completely adorable child that I have the privilege of staying home with day in and day out to see her grow and learn and experience and annoy and I wouldn't trade this time with her for anything. Well, maybe a day at the spa. But that's it. Or cheesecake.

So I guess I'll take the good with the bad and hope for a good tomorrow. Make that pray for a good tomorrow.